Doodling is fun and really helps time FLY!

another quotable moment in mi vida...New Year Resolution :)

"Forgive your enemies, but never forget their names." ~John F. Kennedy

So here is my new year's resolution: Work on loving unconditionally. I love my family unconditionally. However, this past year showed me how HARD it is to love the Family that I choose (my FRIENDS) Unconditionally. So no matter what happens between friends and other loved ones within the next year and for the rest of my life, I want to still be able to say that I have love for them if something happens that comes to test or 'pause'/'terminate' a 'friendship'. No more destroyed friendships basically, where things get so bad that the only option is to blow the mother-effer up. I want to respect the honest connections that brought us together in the first place. People in your life are seasons, and I know and except that fact. I just don't want the season's to pass drenched in negativity ANYMORE, because that will only create 'baggage' for me to carry into the next season I'm entering. I'm going to keep the peace and keep the love. Because truthfully, I do love many people that are in my life AND no longer in my life and if I was to pass away from this life, I would want all of them to know that...to know that I have nothing but love and well wishes in my heart for them and their lives. I'm going to make sure that my actions represent that from now on out.

I've got to do better and I'm going to do better. See you all at the TOP!!!!!!! :)

jessalaine :)

Follow up to last post, so folks don't get it CONFUSED

EVERYTHING IN MODERATION.

Also, WITH RESPECT FOR SELF AND OTHER(S)

LOL....HERE'S A VIDEO..I PUT 'ADDICTION' INTO YOUTUBE'S SEARCH AND ACTUALLY FOUND THIS VIDEO...COOLNESS/CRAZINESS.

"WHAT'S YOUR ADDICTION??? Is it money, is it girls, is it weed" Kanye West, Addiction, Late Registration.

Choose internet over sex.......for real??? lol, wtf!?!?!

SOOOOO, I was reading CNN and I like to read the articles that have been emailed the most...you know since I'm not cool enough to be a part of the group of people that get it emailed to them...just kidding I do that because I have nothing better to do sometimes....but anyways, I saw the headline. "Survey: many would take internet over sex"



Here's the link. read it: http://www.cnn.com/2008/TECH/12/15/internet.sex.survey/index.html?imw=Y&iref=mpstoryemail

First of all, LMAO!

Second of all, this is why people get divorced.


I love the internet and all...but the internet ain't EVERYTHING. For real, I would definitely rather go back to life before the internet ruled the world before giving up a great thing that God intended for us to do.

Craziness.


Peace and Love, of course,

J.E
That is all.

I do try not to get worked up about material things.....

Source:
http://bbcicecream.com/blog/2008/12/16/palladium-cologne-germany/#more-4251



However, I REALLY LOVE THIS SHIRT!!!! I saw it on N.E.R.D's blog (bbcicecream.com.blog)
Sidenote: check out their blog it's pretty cool. I mean I like it. They tend to put up pics of all the cool things they get to see and do which I think is cool, when you're bored as fcuk in the midwest.




This Shirt.....It's classic, what makes it even better is it references on of my fave N.E.R.D songs, come on sing it with me..."doooo i reallly eveeeenn loooovveeee yoooouuuu???? or do i really loveee your......brraaaiiinnn" lmao. I know it's late for Christmas requests but if you love me and/or want me to be happy you could always go hunt them down in Europe break into their tour bus/hotel (I will not be responsible for your bail money) and just steal/borrow forever the shirt when no one's around...cuz I'm not sure where to get it...but for real though if and when it is released(if it hasn't been released yet and i'm just sloow) I'm really probably going to buy it...hopefully it will be after the 1st or 16th of the month lol (since my rent and sidekick bill will have been paid) because I'm a broke college student....I will deal with not being able to go out (or up, for that matter lol) because I'll have a frickin cool ass shirt....Hi Hater.






I REALLLLY WANT THIS SHIRT LOL! LIKE WE ALL KNOW I LOVE LOVE LOVE MR. WEST BUT IF I HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN MEETING KANYE AND GETTING THIS SHIRT...I MIGHT HAVE TO PUT MY DREAM OF MEETING HOMIE ON HOLD...THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING...no offense, lol, j/k...but not really i don't think...i don't think that's mean as long as he never found out lol (how would he) so if I ever did meet him he won't be like, "this b*tch traded me for a t-shirt"......it's a sweet t-shirt tho!

this was random i know, but i was surfing the net as usual and saw this shirt, and instead of talking to myself about how much i wanted this shirt, i wrote in this blog. lol

PEACE&muchLove
JessalaineJessalaine

See...John McCain is not a bad guy

The one thing that really got to me about the whole Presidential Election and the campaigning is that I really feel that this campaign season brought out the Best and thee Worst in people. It brought out the best by invigorating so many people, especially young adults. It got people who usually could care less about whether they vote or not to get an opinion and voice it at the poll. I think that happened on both sides of the fence (republican & democrat). However, it also brought out the worst. Think about how many heated debates you either had, heard about, or witnessed. Think of all the negative things and words you would see brought up about both candidates. It truly brought out the worst. I say that to say, I really liked John McCain prior to the presidential campaign. So it really got to me to see the Campaign John McCain, I think that the people he trusted that were close to him got Ugly and then that ugliness just swooped up John McCain almost whirlwind like. Now that the campaign is over I really like the John McCain I'm seeing. I watched his interview on "This Week" this past Sunday and I was really endeared to the man again. I don't know if it was the part of me that always wants to take up for the underdog but for real, I was pleased with what I saw. During the interview he said something that was REAL and HONEST and I appreciated it. It's basically the point of this blog, so hear it is (He was answering the question about how he got past losing the presidential race):

"Get busy and move on. That's the best cure for it. I spent a period of time feeling sorry for myself. It's wonderful. It's one of the most enjoyable experiences that you can have. But the point is: You've got to m ove on...."


speaking words of wisdom...let it be.

Peace&TooMuchLoveICan'tEvenHandleIt.....

JessalaineJessalaine

This used to be (and really still is..) my SHIIIITTTTTT, truth. truth. truth.

Words that still hold true today. ...Remember, music is more telling than logic. I remember riding around in my lil camaro bumping this song after school, riding home at nights just singing this ish at the toooppp of my lungs. (by myself...because I had a CURFEW...i def. pushed the envelope as much I could w/ the curfew but still was ALWAYS the first to PEACE out, lol) I really felt it, I still do....


SIDENOTE: The official Video for this song is tyyyyyyte. I first heard about this song via TRL, back when Music Videos ruled the world and it was one of the main ways peeps heard about music, check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8NDQls3_kc

Here are the lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/shit-on-the-radio-lyrics-nelly-furtado.html
Because the words, are what I'm truly in love with. (Disclaimer: It was a fan that wrote these lyrics out I'm sure, everyone's ear is different, so if you prefer just watch the official video and listen for yourself loves)

Dedication, ANG. However, I hope others hear these words...that I feel could be taken right out of my Heart.

Peace&MuchLove,
JessalaineJessalaine
:)

And I wonder.....

So I found this article on CNN.com...I literally laughed out loud at work when I read this from the story's highlights. "About two pounds of potent cannabis found stashed in Gushi shaman's tomb" --> LMAO at POTENT and that they said it was STASHED.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/12/11/ancient.cannabis/index.html?imw=Y&iref=mpstoryemail

On A Sidenote:
They found two pounds of this marijuana. (TWO POUNDS!) What are they/did they do with it. Something tells me SOMEBODY took some! I hope they don't destroy it...That would be really inhumane. I do think that marijuana will be legalized for medicinal purposes all over the country at some point in the not so far future...so they should hold onto it....for research purposes.

Read The Article.
Don't Do Drugs.

breaking rules

Sooooo, I told myself I was going to retire the bright nail polish once fall and winter seriously rolled around...I think I did an okay job of only selecting 'bold' colors for awhile...but I couldn't resist.....

Painting my nails is really something that I seriously enjoy. I should mention I enjoy chipping the nail polish as well.

I took this pic after I was done with the painting and such...and since I'm bored at work i decided to post it.

Peace&Love

j.e.l

Photoshop really is SWWEEETTTT!

I have to thank a wonderful Cuban-Bolivian Beauty for creating this picture....giving me and many others a GREAT LAUGH! This is honestly THEEE BEST PIC EVER!

Sidenote: I think there are one too many pictures of me floating around this world with my mouth OPEN! I need to work on that...maybe I'll just turn into one of those SUPER-POSERS...you know the folks that strike a pose the minute they see a camera pointed anywhere in their direction..........................................................................womp womp.

If You Don't Respect Love, How can You Expect Love to Respect You?

In a past conversation with a great friend, we were talking about the state of some things going on around and within us and I just said, "You can't expect love to respect you, if you don't respect love." And it wasn't until after the last word had come out of my mouth that I realized exactly how profound the statement was. I feel it was so deep and sincere that I had set a new standard for my life just by speaking the words. After that conversation, I really did evaluate the statement I had made and elaborated on it in my mind. I want to make sure I understood what I was saying to make sure that I hold my own self accountable in/with Love and other matters of the heart. Also,I felt that I should have what I meant by the statement in reference somewhere in my mind should I need to explain it at some time. This entry is one of those times...



I really put Love on a high pedastal. Just because I truly believe that it conquers all. I wrote awhile ago about how God is Love. God can fix anything, therefore Love can fix anything. I don't just believe in the Power of Love because it sounds good...I've seen for myself and experienced for myself what Love can fix and do. I feel like when a person is in love they are fragile, whether they want to be or not..whether they want to be or not. A person is fragile because of the power that love possesses. Think of the crazy things you have done or seen done for love. Think of how broken you have been or how broken someone close to you has been over love. Think of all the crimes of passion that make it on the news, simply because someone couldn't live without someone's love, or they couldn't handle the thought/reality that someone they love is loving someone else (I feel this is more the exception, than the rule). That is how powerful Love is...it makes you do thinks you think you could never do and you feel ways that you never felt before and experience a feeling that doesn't exist outside of the Love you're feeling. Love is so powerful that it can also hurt you in a way that you may feel at the time is incurable. However, I do not feel that Love's intentions are to birth pain. I feel that Love in the wrong hands and Misplaced Love bring hurt and from there only a Greater Love can cure that hurt. I hope you feel me when I say that Love is powerful.



We are socialized to respect those that are in positions of power. Think about it...as a society we really do respect and place on a 'throne' those that are powerful and effective at showcasing that power. So I just wonder why we as people can't seem to grasp the fact that Love has to be respected. Especially if you are to REAP WHAT YOU SOW (Sidenote: Karma is Real. You Better Believe That Buddy.) I feel that if you take advantage and misuse Love then you can't expect for the Real Love that you give to someone at some point to be honored. Because Love has already identified you as someone that is going to treat her wrong and disgrace her name. A person in that situation is going to have to work EXTRA HARD, once they're really in Love just to prove themselves worthy. Naturally it shouldn't be hard for an individual to prove that they are worthy of love because we were made to love and be loved. However, we reap what we sow...so if you sow shit, you will get shit. If you cause someone pain under the umbrella of Love then you should expect nothing less at some point to feel the same pain that you caused someone else to feel. That's not because of any kind of vengenance but how can you really understand Love if you don't understand that other side of it as well...it's necessary to make you a better lover, someone worthy of Love you're seeking.



I think what I mean by respecting Love is pretty simple and it's not much to ask for from people. It just means being the BEST PERSON that YOU CAN BE! There is no sweeping standard because circumstances vary with every situation. If you want some examples:

-Don't Cheat, Don't Cheat, Don't Cheat. Ladies and Gents...I think when people cheat on someone they are really disrespecting love because they are only thinking about themselves. No matter how you slice it. For me there are no excuses for that B.S...because I would rather get over the hurt of breaking up and realizing that it wasn't a love that was meant to be, then to have to get over someone cheating on me and finding out 1. I'm a damn fool and 2. that person didn't give two shits about me. (I'm not judging those that like to dip out on their significant others...because Do You....but I'm just saying Karma is Real...and it could come back at you with the strength of a thousand pains...when you least expect it.)

-Be Honest. Be honest with yourself and the one that is loving you. Should the time come that you're love isn't what it was with someone, you should let them know because you love them (or at some point had love for them). The truth hurts, but nothing like a lie. I believe that Love will show the person that the Love wasn't the right one, just as It had showed you that it wasn't right. If you're honest, you make sure that Love will come back around to you truthfully.

-Don't confuse respecting love with the reciprocation of love. You can respect love without reciprocating it when you find yourself in these kinds of situations. What you don't do is lead the person that is loving you on to believe that there is mutual feelings or even the chance for mutual feelings in the future. You shouldn't feel bad if the feelings someone has for you doesn't match the feelings you have, because that person is just travelling down the road that is going to lead them to their One.

-Keep it Real. Basically, don't call a pile of shit a dozen roses. If you are just talking to someone, tell them. If you're just screwing, tell them (or at least be CLEAR in all your actions, and don't confuse clear with smooth). My Mama, (whom I love more than my own self because she keeps it real with me to make sure I become the Best Woman that I can be) told me once, "Jessica, sex with someone you don't love is just getting the monkey off your back." Those truly are words of wisdom and it is so true. Outside of the moral conviction the Church put in me, I don't think that a person should feel bad about just having sex. Sometimes you just need to get 'the monkey off your back.' Don't read that as me saying that you should be out screwing a different person every week, or worse every night. You're body is a temple and you should be careful of whom you let enter it. If you just let anybody kick it at the temple, the property value goes down. At least in my books...once again no judgement passing those that like lots of visitors in or at their Temple...I'm just saying I wouldn't buy it and that's because I judge myself by the same, if not harsher, standards. Don't let the belief that just having sex with someone is a bad thing lead you to mislead someone. Keep it Real.

To just put it simply I really feel that you should always have good intentions when dealing and interacting with other people. That isn't hard because if you can't find any good intentions to apply towards someone that's a good sign that person is someone that you don't need in your life, so just take the hint and keep it moving.



This post isn't me judging anyone, so please do not take it as that. I take the Commandment, Thou Shalt Not Judge, seriously. I don't do it, less I be judged by the same standards. I only judge myself and that works for me, because I want to be the Best Person that I Can Be. This is merely my opinion. If this post 'stings you' or 'pokes at you' in any manner, it really wasn't my intention, but I will say that if it is moving you in some kind of way maybe take a second to reflect on the person that you are or the person that you may be presenting to someone.



Also, this post wasn't brought to you by a 'woman's scorn.' This is just my perspective, based on what I've seen or experienced in this short life of mine.



Peace&MuchLove,

JessalaineJessalaine



**Hopefully this entry does justice to the point I was trying to get across. I'm at work and all over the place, plus my head is hurting a little bit...still recovering from THEE ABSOLUTE WORST headache I had last night that kept me up forever....booo to that ish.***

SIDENOTE, simply brought to you by procrastination, lol

Let inspiration take the place of aspiration. All unemployment would cease. I always have plenty of work to be done and always pay My workpeople well.
--Two Listeners

This was my iGoogle homepage's Reminder From God. Haha, it made me not feel so guilty about writing in my blog instead of these papes (that's not a typo, i'm referring to my papers as pApes...lol, "street" terms applied to my hustle, college) that I need to be writing.

Peace,
J.E.

just wondering....

i'm just wondering if anybody else's iTunes, when your whole music library is on shuffle, seems to just play ALL THE RIGHT SONGS?!?!??? because mine does so more often than not. and i remember when i had like DA BOMB music library, before my hard drive decided to crash, and it would just be on point like, every single time. Now because I'm slowly but surely rebuilding my music library to the status it was once at, it happens less frequently but it's always at the right times. For real. Maybe I'm crazy and obsessed with music in a very unhealthy way, but I swear this happens. I got this matchbook that has like a music truism on the inside and it says, "that music is more telling than logic." and I just think that is so true. (SIDENOTE/ANOTHER BLOG ENTRY: That's why I think God truly has his hands on the music industry....because music can just reveal things to you sometimes...I'm talking all genres gospel/christian and secular) Bob Marley said, that "when music hits, you feel no pain" and it goes along with that. Music is just the ish and I'm so thankful that it moves me the way it does.!

I'm listening to "Live Your Life," you know by T.I. and Rihanna, and I promise I love T.I. verses on this song but RIHANNA KIIIILLLLLLLLLLS IIITTTTTT! Like if I hear this song at the club at the right (or possibly wrong...depending on how the situation would end...) moment...once it get's to RIHANNA's part I'm wyyyyllllinnn. For Reals, that part is my JAM! Like so quotable that I don't even like to quote it because it's special, lol. I told you...I might be obsessed with music. But, who cares? Cool.

By the way this moment was brought to you by:
-Joss Stone "Put Your Hands On Me"
-Usher ft. Jay-Z "Best Thing" (I couldn't give a f*ck, how could I give a finger? - Jay-Z. WORD!)
-Kid Cudi "Embrace the Martian"
-Maroon 5 and Rihanna "If I Never See Your Face Again" *lol, had a pleasant moment w/ this song
-Pharrell ft. Snoop Dogg "That Girl"
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Now playing: T.I. - Live Your Life (feat. Rihanna)
via FoxyTunes


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Now playing: Kanye West - Graduation Day
via FoxyTunes


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Now playing: Pharrell Williams - Raspy shit
via FoxyTunes

If you didn't realize this is the playlist that I listened before it was even a thought in my mind to blog up to the finishing of this post. Meaning I started writing this part at the end of Raspy Shit Lol, because right now I'm listening to John Legend "This Time" though probs going to skip it because it's so deep and IDK i don't know if I want to gooooo THERE, you know that place only JOhn LEgend can get you, you konw....LIkE LIFteD lol. yuppers.

Peace&Mucho Love as always,
Jeeeeeesssssssssaaaaalaine :)

Funny Follow Up to my Prop 8 inspired rant :p

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

Literally...the stuff nightmares are made of...

It's like everytime I walk through this door and my brain just turns off. I prefer not to think between the four walls that this door is the entrance too. Ugh. I can't complain though because I do have a job and that is more than many, whom really need to be able to, can say. I'm just saying....there should be some kind of movement that revolutionizes office practices.

Feelin This AHORITA......

DEFINITELY A GOOD SONG.



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Now playing: Kanye West - Tell Everybody that you Know ft. Lil' Wayne
via FoxyTunes

tatuaje #3

I just thought this was a nice little piece of artwork that I could share. Simple but nice...at least in my opinion!

((11.29.08))


"fuck '08, we thinkin' bout '09" - Kid Cudi
Sidenote: I will forever remain thankful for 2008! You taught me well and we had some GREAT times!
For the record: this tattoo does not represent that K.C quote! I just added it...because thinking about the tattoo's meaning to me made me think of that quote yo. Enjoy.

PEAAAACCCE,
J.E.

Extended weekend oddities

So, I went to the UPS Store one day during this little holiday break that past. And as I was waiting, I let my eyes wander and they landed upon this little sign. UPS does it's customers the favor of telling them ahead of time, so there is no need for the customer to ask, that they will not ship (EXPLOSIVE MATERIALS) . That literally made me Laugh Out Loud. It's nice to know that in this day and age, we are at the point where it actually has to be stated that shipping companies will not ship Explosive Materials. Madness.

What is the world coming to?

Later that day, I went into a public restroom in a shopping mall where I'm from. When I washed my hands, I was suprised to notice that the dispenser shaped container on the wall was not for soap, but for disposing dirty/used needles. I was just amazed. I couldn't believe that I was seeing what I was seeing. I think what amazed me the most is that the administration of the mall I was in really felt that there was a need for a needle disposal thingy in the public restroom. Like dirty needles are really that big of a problem for this mall?? This is the world we live in and I would just never expect this at a shopping mall! I mean I could picture one of these at a shady gas station or rest stop but not in a mall. Mad Crazy.

Once again...Really what is the world coming to??

These are just a few of the WOW moments I had over this little break.

I feel like I should mention that I went to my first strip club over the weekend. Being from Indiana and hearing all about the strip clubs in Atlanta from my people's that travelled South for school, made me a little skeptical to visit one of our local strip clubs. Mostly because I didn't want to see anyone I went to high school with up on nobody's pole doing their thug thizzle and I definitely didn't want to see garbage, period, on a pole. So I FINALLY decided to go, after pre-gaming like only me and my love know how to do it seems, and went to the strip club. Looking phenomenal I might add. Made it to the strip club which was unimpressive from the outside, but quite the opposite on the inside. I must say I was thoroughly impressed with these women. LMAO. These chicks really really really really work hard for their money and I can't knock them (I don't think I ever have.) I know people like to hate on the sssstttrrrippppaass but really they are just HATING. These women's pockets (at least the ones at this particular strip club I visited) are probably on the fat side and I would hate to if I wasn't dedicated to my own hustle. Shit I was damn near inspired at this strip club! I think everyone should go to a strip club at least once and another time with your boo...because if you pick the right club, it's guranteed to be a fun time.

Sillllly. I know.

Peace&Love

Jessssalaine

Be THANKFUL for the Life You Have!

So I'm sitting here bored at work doing nothing...wishing that time would do a line of coke and speed the Heck up! (Sidenote: Don't do DRUGS!, crack is whack, coke is a joke...I prefer to Live Above the Infuence, lol and that's all that I advocate.) Even though I get off at noon today I still wish that time would progress as smoothly as it does on the days that I feel all bogged down but whatever, it's all good, sitting here made me start thinking about this upcoming trip to Detroit my familia is taking for Thanksgiving and it made me think of Thanksgiving and what I'm thankful for and about the holidays and how the holidays are always like times of reflection for people, at least to those that reflect. (I'm so not going to assume that everyone 'reflects' because my experience has shown me that some do not evaluate or self-evaluate, that's another post for real.) I just started thinking about all the things I'm grateful for and some of the things that popped in my head were just hilarious, so I decided to come here and list them...I mean it's not like I have anything bettter to do, lol.

I'M THANKFUL FOR.... (in no particular order):
-Fingernail polish. Painting my nails grew to be a very calming, therapuetic occasion in my life. It helped to reduce the nail biting (though I do enjoy chipping the nail polish off when it's at the end of it's run) and it was fun to watch the nails grow. Progress in a beautiful cool form. If it weren't for all the cool fingernail polishes I was able to find, I wouldn't have been able to enjoy taking moments to myself and painting my nails. So yes, I really am thankful for nail polish, it makes me happy.
-My Goodness, My Family. I loooooove my family. They all crack me up like no one can, love me like only they can, and support me in a way that is incomparable to the other support I receive in my life (except G-O-D's of course). I'm thankful for that foundation. This includes my ENTIRE family, not just the immediate
-The World Wide Web. Without it, I would be sitting here staring at wooden panel walls and pictures of people that look like they could be fake. The internet is cool, you can find out so much.
-Nature, oh sweet Nature. I'm thankful for nature, not so much the outdoors part of it all (meaning less than desirable weather conditions, bugs, birds, etc), but definitely the NATURAL part of it all. This Earth grows so much Great stuff that really shows us that God really wants us to be happy ;)
-My Homies. I'm so thankful for the friends that I rank as HOMIES. No need to list them, because those that are homies have no question about their status w/ me. I love the laughs, the good times, the memories, the support! Homies are the Family I choose.
-Music, duh. Of course. Music gets me through many many many many situations. Work, stress, workouts, walking, drifting, all sorts of moments are made so much better with music. I love my Music like it's MY Music...Music is Fun, it can be real, I just love it, always seems to make me want to dance, even if it is a two step....lol. Plus without music, there would be no concerts, which I love.
-Facebook. I really do have a love/hate relationship with Facebook but overall it never fails in giving me that Good Laugh when I least expect it. Fbook can be downright annoying sometimes but honestly sometimes it's just the click of a button, and the reading of a few words, and it's like I'll literally laugh out loud. Facebook is great.
-Carmex. It really is my best friend throughout winter. Without it my lips tend to hurt really bad.
-Boys, in general. You bring the entertainment, the comedy to my life. They usually always crack me up. Whether I'm laughing with them or at them it's always a good time. Either way they usually bring a smile to my face, so I'm thankful.
-Sidekicks. Sidekicks are cool, I really do love my Sidekick I can do quite a bit with it, though it doesn't have a touch screen, it is efficient (when the network isn't messing up) and I like that. I love texting, and this phone is clutch for that.
-Colors. I really like them, I think they're cool especially when they are organized on to items in an eye-catching fashionable manner. I just like colors. My family tells me I'm colorful...because I like color so much and I chose to express it in my dress, accessories, and nail polish :)
-Blankets. Because I'm quite sure it's impossible for me to sleep without one. Even if I get hot, I get from under it, but keep it close.
-Faith & Hope. Without those two things I don't think I would have made it through this year. I found them to be the answers to my most troublesome questions.
-Chuck Taylors. I think they're cool, and they come in cool colors and designs sometimes.
-Skinny Jeans. Because they're hot, and they help show off my za-pa-tos (spoken how it's seen, but the word is zapatos, or shoes in english) Plus I spent majority of my life dedicated to the flare jean so it's time I let another style shine.
-My Lost Ones. To the friends I 'lost' (Lost as in gone forever or that may prove to be just lost for awhile...only time will tell) I truly am thankful because each one's journey through my life taught me so much about this life and myself and I can't see how I would have gotten to the really good place I'm at right now had I not had each experience. I am just thankful and I' happy and I wish everyone of the 'ones' the best for real.
-My J-O-B. Only because I'm chasing that paper though. Stack That Cheese.
-My future. Because like I said to my G.I.G back when we were graduating (Class of '05 stand up) "Our Future's So Bright, We Just Gotta Wear Shades!" the statement still holds true today.
-Turtles. Because they're cool and they gave me a great tattoo idea that I finally went and got.
-Auto-tone. Lol because it helped give us 808's and Heartbreak...and Chopped and Screwed ft. Ludacris. I'm being silly......but for real..lol
-The Creator. Because his Master Plan is so darn good that it is responsible for everything we see in front of us and everything that will be.
-Of Course Barack and Michelle Obama. They're doing what many thought impossible not so many years ago ("I know it seems heaven sent/we ain't ready to see a Black President" -Tupac) They are redifining a culture and a society's overall predetermined expectations for a people. I love it and God Bless the President Elect of the United States of America, Barack Obama.
-Indiana. Even though it was split down the middle thank you for going Blue. I'm proud to be a Hoosier, knowing that all ya'll aren't that bad and for refuting the long held belief that I and other people have held about you all being low key racist. <--JOKE. Kind of. LoL
-The Thanksgiving Holiday. Because that means I don't have to see the faces of the people I work with for a full four days. Wowser. Now that is something to shout about
-Casual Fridays. It makes things a little bit easier in my mind when I can wear my chucks and hoodie into work, because they don't think the heat should be turned on for some reason.
-My mind. Thought it gets sidetracked often, and my memory is not what it used to be. I
m thankful for my logic, as I've stated before, "I'm just married to my logic..." and honestly I don't see a divorce coming anytime soon. At least until I find something better.

That's bout all I got for now...who knows I may update more throughout the day, who knows. Haha that's another thing I'm grateful for, FREE WILL.

PEAAAACCCEE and MUCH LOVE, and Happy Thanksgiving - spend time with ur Loved Ones,
JessalaineJessalaine

Dear Kanye West....

Getting ready to listen to 808's and Heartbreak....I decided to 'chilll' for a moment en el garaje, then I came inside, put my pjs on, hopped in bed, and just to make sure I was on point I listened to "Through The Wire" from the College Dropout, a song that me and the ladies heard on the way back from Columbus and when it was over we were all like, "man everything he said on this song was so true" and "this is why no matter what I'll be getting 808's and Heartbreak...'history in the making man'" Before that though I did listen to Rihanna ft. Jay-Z "Umbrella" b/c I don't know all I know musically I'm a FRIEND of Kanye West for Life...like that man is Touched and I think that those that don't feel him should just not speak on the issue...because those that do feel him FEEL him and really don't care what you all think :P (he who does not feel me, is not real to me, therefore he doesn't exist, Vamos Son of A B*tch -Hov)

I found the New York Times Review on the internet, it has some questionable parts that I didn't like but I did like at the end where it says,
"No less a branding visionary than 50 Cent, whom Mr. West last year famously outsold in head-to-head first-week record sales, has criticized Mr. West’s direction on this album, telling MTV, “I don’t think the public will forgive him for it.” (He added, “I think his album is T-Pain’s record, but I’d rather buy it from T-Pain.”) 50’s wrong on at least one count, though: Mr. West’s fans aren’t loyal to form, they’re loyal to him."

Word.

Sidenote: This reviewer could have ended his review with that but he had to tag on, "But Mr. West is testing that commitment. For all his self-scrutiny, he has never truly demanded emotional investment."

Like I said musically I am a friend of Kanye West. We're supposed to be there for our friends when they have their moments. I remember telling my LOVE a brief overview of what people were saying about this album back in September and I just said, "Man, he's clearly just been through some things so I just gotta support him...no matter the sound" I basically think that if 'Mr. West' is testing his fans committment then he is about to pass with flying colors...as he always does.

Here's the link to the review article, check it out yo: http://www.nytimes.com/2008/11/25/arts/music/25kany.html?partner=permalink&exprod=permalink

Great Idea: I definitely think that Kanye West and Fall Out Boy should do a mash-up album...either one of select songs from each of their careers or one of 808's & Heartbreak..mixed with one of FOB's albums (I'll wait to say which one would sound best until I hear FOB's new album......anxious for that one too.) I also thought it would be tight to hear Fall Out Boy cover all of 808's & Heartbreak...that would be hard. I might love it better than Jay-Z and Linkin Park's Collison Course...that is if it were to come about...

To say the least, I really did LOVE 808's & Heartbreak, and I'm not just saying that because it's by Kanye West. It was definitely an album FOR Kanye that I really think he needed to make in order to get him to the Legendary, Iconic, Historical place/spot which his destiny commands that he occupies. I applaud him for taking this chance and putting himself out there when *he is/was/may still be vulnerable*

*Disclaimer: I do not know Kanye West personally, So i can not speak to his state of mind but I just feel when you show your heart the way in which he has on 808's & Heartbreak you are bound to have experienced or experience some sort of vulnerability.

I guess this was one of those fan type blogs...IDK it's late at night and I'm just drifting/typing/blah blah blah

Peace&Love
JessalaineJessalaine

COP THAT 808's & Heartbreak...at least do yourself a favor and sit and listen to it all the way through.

sweeetnesssss from mi dia

The internet is so cool and I honestly am not even that much into technology at all but I really think that the Internet was the BEST invention EVER....well next to electricity and only because without electricity there would be no internet. I say that be.cause you can do so much stuff these days with the internet...like it's endless really. I have a class in a virtual world. Yes a class at The Ohio State University that meets in this place called Second Life (just google that ish...and you will be amazed..if you haven't already heard about it) I don't necessarily like all that but I do like this blog and I do like my Gmail, my facebook, my myspace, google, bossip, kanye's blog, and i just got put on to imeem which I think I might like as well. Saying alllll that to say that I really enjoy my iGoogle home page...from the theme all the way down to my add-on, "Reminders from God" which gave me this little token upon opening my browser:

All walls shall fall before you. Your faith and My power are the only two essentials. So if man’s petty opposition still holds, it is only because I choose to let it stand between you and what would be a mistake for you.

--Two Listeners

And to that all I could say is, "Cool."


On Another Note:
I bought two books today, I remember in high school when I was stressed out I would go to the bookstore and buy books...I'm nerd and cool with it :) Funny thing though when I got to college and life stressed me I bought clothes...so I guess that makes me a Cool Nerd now...and I'm cool with that too. (Sidenote: I should make more of an effort to alternate between books and clothes when I'm engaging in 'shop therapy/mind-freeing'....that way I don't overdose on the cool...only my fellow Lupe Lovers will understand the last half of that)

I bought: The Definitive Guide to Stuff White People Like The Unique Taste of Millions and The Wisdom of The Ancient Greeks. Mind stimulating kind of stuff....at least to my mind.

Stuff White People Like will probably have me laughing for days and The Wisdom of the Ancient Greeks will add to my uhhhh.....'vocabulary' or 'collection of random quotes/advice/blah blah blah' I don't know what to call it but I already found some interesting thought provoking things in the book....which I'll drop later on because Procrastination has gotten the best of me one again and there is a paper I must tend to. And while I'm writing the paper I'm going to pretend to be paying attention in my online class that meets in Second Life. Multi-tasking at it's...worst.

Peace&MuchLove
Jessalaine

"And they'll know we are Christians by our Love, by our Love..."

I know I am a little bit late on this Special Comment from Keith Olbermann (I believed it was aired on 11/10/08). I really do think this Special Comment is amazing because as he stated in the beginning he has no personal stake in the Proposition, but he eloquently talks about why he is dismayed about it and he effectively, in my opinion, compels other people to consider the reasons they are supporting it. I am not going to sum it up to much because I've already embedded it into this post, so watch it if you haven't watched it yet. :)

Did you watch it????

DO It.

Ok now we're ready for my 'two cents' on the issue:

You know, I was raised Apostolic. It is very similar to Pentecostal, however, I would say a tad bit more strict. The church taught me that piercings, tattoos, makeup, sex (before marriage), rock n roll, girls should only wear skirts (not short ones), and of course that homosexuality is HUGE Heck NO. All this was laid upon me as a child in conjuction with the Christian principles that my Pastors and Parents taught me. I am very much so in Love with the Christian beliefs that live within my foundation. I truly believe without them I would be NOTHING. However, as I got older and my family's experience with the Apostolic church progressed I started to find little contradictions that made me really reject the rules and regulations that aren't created by God, as seen in the Bible, but are created based on some Man's interpretation of God's word. Thankfully, I was able to distinguish between God's Word and Will and a Man's Word and Will which only proved to bring me closer to God which is what all religions ultimate goal should be. (The ultimate goal being, bring followers closer to the supreme deity being worshipped by the respective religion.)

God is Love (see John 4:16). Those are three words that every Christian must understand I feel to really make the steps to living the righteous life that God has intended for us to live, or simply to just be a Good Christian. We are all supposed to be striving to be like God/Jesus and if that is the case then we must always respond in Love and let Love guide our actions. John 3:16 states that "God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." This scripture demonstrates the Love that God himself showed to a world that had yet to learn to honor, love, and fear him. In John 15:13 it says, "Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends." you are able to see something on the Love that Jesus showed when he allowed his crucifixition. (Yes he allowed it, because Jesus did have a choice and it took him 33 years to understand and accept the choice he made.) Jesus had to die in order for anyone that came before or after him who believed in God to have everlasting life. He had to justify the love that God had showed to the world and the only way he could do that was through an act of love just as awesome. All of this love was shown with no regards to the amount of sin that was going on during the time period. Great acts of love despite less than desirable circumstances. And when all this was said and done God commanded that we should love one another as he has loved us (John 15:12).

With all the Bible "quoting" (paraphrasing is probably a better word) that goes on to justify homophobia, I just presented three scriptures that flat out expose the ungodliness in the discrimination and hate shown towards homosexuals. We were not put on this earth to pass judgement on anyone (see the Ten Commandments). We are humans, born into a world of sin and unable to be perfect while on this Earth. However, God did create a straight and narrow path that we should follow in order to navigate this world. That path is depicted in the moral of the Crucifixition story. That path is Love. It is straight and narrow because how hard is it to Love someone that has done you wrong, or to love someone that you believe is doing wrong. It's hard but you know what Jesus, who walked the same Earth and encountered the same world as us, somehow was able to do it. Despite what he saw, what he heard, and how he was treated, he still laid down his life so that we would have a chance.

I say all that to say this: First of all, we can not point the finger to condemn anybody. He who is without sin please cast the first stone at homosexual couples that are just trying to make the best out of the world they live in and marry the one they love like everyone else is able to. No sin is greater than another sin. So yes, you who cheats on your wife, you who chooses to steal, and lie, are just as much a sinner as someone who chooses to have sex/love someone of the same sex. We will all be judged accordingly to our OWN WORKS on this Earth so what concern is it to anybody what works someone else will be judged upon?

Second of all, we are supposed to hate the sin but love the sinner. As Christians we should not be taking any steps that discriminate against another human being. We can say well it's to keep the world "pure" or whatever, but this world is not our home and it will one day perish, we need to stop trying to create Heaven on Earth because that cannot exist. So what happens in this world that is unlike God should just be of no concern to us. We are called to show our Christianly love to people in order to bring people closer to God. Showing hate, spewing hate, will not turn anyone into the God-fearing Christian you want them to be.

I think the world, christions, and other religious folk have sincerely messed up because they have become more concerned with condemnation instead of salvation. They are more concerned with passing judgements on people and saying what one individual can and can't do that they have forgotten that we are supposed to Love and that we are supposed to spread the message of God (God is Love...thus the message of Love) to everyone. As a matter of fact 1 John 4:8 states that "He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is Love." I just wish everyone that claims to be a Christian would remember what it really means to be a Christian and TRULY submerge yourself in God's word and develop a personal relationship with him so that the meaning of his words can be revealed to you.

IDK....

I just know that I'm not allowed to cast judgement. I know that I am supposed to love my neighbor. I know that God didn't send me here to stop sin because sin is an inevitable in this world. He did send me here to spread Love though and that's what I'm going to do.

Allowing homosexual couples to get married will not hurt anyone! It will only hurt people's 'moral conscious.' And instead of responding with hate and restriction to something that you hold in your heart as wrong, why not show love and believe that the only thing that can conquer sin is God himself. If we as humans could do something, the Devil and sin would have been eliminated already. I know this because the Devil makes me MAD! And I honestly say God just give me one round and I'll take care of him, I'm sure a human bold enough would have emerged by now to conquer the thing that brings nothing but lies, destruction and deceit. God will deal with us sinners when we meet him. All I can do is share the Love and Word of God when I get the chance and hope that people are doing that with me so as we all stumble down this road called Life we make sure that we stay on the straight and narrow.

Christians, Religious Folk: stop judging and condemning. start loving and teaching...and watch how many people you can bring to a place where they understand, appreciate and LOVE the Love of God.

Waxing Poetic....a humble attempt

(Note: I never share my 'poetry.' I don't think I'm a poet with my words, rather I lace my prose with eloquence..or try to. However, there are those moments, where prose won't do and my pencil hits paper and produces a 'poem.' LEAVE YOUR FEEDBACK YO!)

Peace&MuchLove
JessalaineJessalaine

"For My Lost Ones"

I'm just letting go

For Once Without Anger

I'd prefer to be a stranger

Really need to close my eyes

Forget the lies, Fuck the Lies

Fuck the Tries, Forget the tries

Forget the truth...Truth forsaken

Far too long, my eyes remained open

Building this burden, building this Burden

Too scared to shut them

Still my eyes I can't condemn

Yet unsure of what's to blame

The Love of the Game?

The Images on Exhibition?

All just wasted convictions, that lead to no Conviction.

So to let go of the Fears

I released some of my Tears.

Never knew that to get by

I would have to cry...

Cry

For the memories lost

Sold at an unfamiliar cost

Cry

And steady Pray on my mistakes stacked

For one chance to take 'em all back

Wonder what took so long

Believing I had to stay strong

Believed my eye had to be on the Prize

Though it cared more about its Disguise

Still had to let go of my Tears

To finally release the Fears

I had to let go

(c) j.e.l

The Office, no not that office, this one's located in Hades

This might be my first official rant...and here is how it came about:

First off, I am supposed to be at work at 8am...but today I arrived at around 7:30. I ride with my Dad to work since we work in the same area, and he had to be at his job at 7:30. Here's how a conversation between us went down at around 7:25am:

Dad: (smiles at me)
Me: (in a grumpy tone) I don't want to be in that office at 7:30.
Dad: Well go get some breakfast...
Me: I don't want to even be in the VICINITY!

So you can kind of see where my mind was at. Of course the sun wasn't up and by looking at the sky I'm sure one would not be able to tell whether it was 7:30pm or 7:30am. And personally, I think that is garbage. That is basically the first problem I have con mi trabajo. Why in the 'H.E.Double L' do we need to be in that darn office by 8:00am. This goes for any office in the world that opens at 8:00 in the morning.I think this cuts back on productivity ridiculously. Any morning I could walk in at 8:45 (late...) and the people in this joint haven't even started a lick of work. Someone is on Facebook (they're damn near thirty...but that's another issue), another is reading a hard back edition of some comic book series, while another is just remaining as clueless as she was the day she walked in here I'm sure. I always sit down at 'my' desk and ask myself, "What am I doing here?" and I try not to respond by getting up and walking out, returning to my bed, and coming in at a more respectable hour. That respectable hour being no earlier than 10:00am. To add to the frustration, I am just a temp in this office, hired and placed by an outside agency. The work I do in here ranges from comical to annoying. I was hired to do data entry (b/c my typing skills are FIIIYA. lol), but they quickly found extra stuff for me to do by looking at their tasks (which I'm quite sure THEY get paid serious cash for THEM to complete) and assigning me the frivolous/tedious portions of them. For example, some of my tasks include alphabetizing, inter-alphabetizing, filing their finished applicants, and I must not forget "date stamping" each sheet of high stacks of paper that the person paid to read each sheet of that large stack can't stamp because...I don't know really. It still baffles me why I must stamp each sheet in prior to him reading it when he can just stamp it in as he reads. I truly believe that the majority of my job is contingent on the laziness of the staff in this office. That's just a few of the things I do but even if I list everything I did, the amount of time it takes me to complete everything does not consist of a full 9 hour work day (1 hour for lunch). Why do I have to be here so early, and leave so late for that matter? (Traffic is the pits at 5, so yeah getting off at 5pm is too late.) My answer to that is "Misery Loves Company."

Which brings me to my next problem...

Never have I encountered individuals that talk SO MUCH...about NOTHING. I really don't have a problem listening to people, but these folks go on and on about the most random stuff. And it always makes me seriously wonder how serious they are for pulling me into this conversion(because I never enter willingly). However, the problem lies in the fact that 85%, maybe 90% even, of the conversations consist of their complaining! They complain about students who are applying to medical school and are calling into find out information regarding their application (a.k.a Their Future!) which kills me because I guess they don't see the "Admissions Office" sign on the door they enter every morning for work. To top it off they gossip and talk major smack behind peoples' backs. They talk about the Dean and smile in this man's face like he's great. They referred to me as the "old lady" and realized I might of heard it, which I did, and literally tried to gauge whether I had for sure by making small talk and giving silly compliments..like 'nice pen.' (I suspect it had something to do with me not being at work the day before and honestly they were salty that they had to be here themselves. 1. Don't ask me why they chose "old lady", they are country ass Hoosiers with no good sense, 2. I confronted the woman, because that's not professional and don't refer to me as anything other than Jessica. And I was thoroughly amused, literally had to hold in my laughter, to watch her construct her lie. Womp Womp.) They smile in my face knowing that they view me as their "bitch" that will do what they say because they THINK (1) I don't know any better and that (2) my job description is quite rigid. I like my paycheck though, and I don't like boredom, so I do the petty tasks and watch the hours pass by swift and smoothly. There's just so much 'say something to one person in the office, then run to another desk to talk shit about the situation that just happened at the previous desk' that goes on daily. I probably would have been fine with all this, had they not tried to incorporate me into their Office Politic Bullshit. I'm just a temp, and as quickly as I came, I will be gone. I choose not to invest in their drama that was happening before me and will continue once I leave.

The gossip, "be all up in your business" approach just really annoys me. I truly believe that these individuals might have a little bit of animosity or misery tied into their 'careers' here, so they just have to spew their negativity out to make sure that someone else besides them is feeling salty. It honestly can't be because they have nothing better to do, they are very behind with applications (this is an admissions office) and I was hired to help catch them up...which was done but my process gets stalled when they stall. I', the one with nothing better to do, but instead of walking around distracting people from their work (which their behind on) I occupy myself with things that will enhance myself. I make the best out of the less than desirable situation. I don't feel the need to go and pour out all my troubles on these people I don't know just to take them down a couple of notches. Too bad my 'co-workers' don't see it that way. And I honestly don't mind the two conversations I had that were 'serious,' I listened and tried to help out with some encouraging words. However, it the other 1,998 conversations I've had or been forced to listen to that really just turns me off to this whole office crap. There is too much fake and facade and not enough efficiency and true teamwork. Office life is for the birds, don't even get me started on this dress code...really that's a whole other entry.

I'm going to leave you with a funny scene from Office Space. Office Space is a movie, and here is the scene, that any *Hip Cool Kid* needs to watch should they ever find themselves working in an Office.
Peace&MuchLove,
JessalaineJessalaine

That's the world...that I someday want to live in...

Goood Morning Folks...I say good morning, seriously because it is a good morning. Despite the fact that I woke up at 6 am after sleeping on a couch that I laid down on the night before, not wanting to spend the whole night there...but subconsciously maybe wanting to. Either way, I wasn't too happy to be awake at 6am and I didn't have any where to be until 11:30....but I shook it off. Took a moment to myself (I do that quite often :), and then watched some music videos on t.v (yeah they still show them...if you wake up early enough, or pay extra for those extra music channels LOL). Overall, my outlook was good for the morning and for the day. I was starting to feel a little sleepy again around 7:45 and I was about to doze off....when I realized....I had to WORK! That was a lemon, I swear, thrown into my morning. I contemplated just not going but seeing how I blew off work the afternoon prior in a very.....let's say...bratty way (I promise they deserved it...you'll hear about my 'job' eventually), I decided to get myself together, add the lemon to my morning's 'green' tea if, make a playlist, and be on my way to campus to my wiggedy wack job.

Despite all that, the morning is still good. I had a good morning because on my walk to work, which is a little under a mile, like .75 miles (yeah...I just mapped that), I was listening to the playlist that I made for my walk and it made me want to DANCE. Seriously, in my mind I was dancing my whole walk to work. And trust, I was bustin' some moves, felt like I could have been in a Justin Timberlake video (and actually, in my mind, I was...in the My Love video). I often can feel and imagine myself dancing like I've never seen myself dance before in real life (Clearly...) and to be honest I would never actually try any of the moves that I see myself doing, in public or private, for fear of embarrassing the hell out of myself. Back to the topic at hand, I continued my groove with every a-fucking-mazing song that came on. As I walked, with a noticeable pep in my step I'm sure and a huge smile on my face I couldn't help but wish I lived in a world where people effin' danced as they walked. As I came to a stoplight even, I wish I had the balls to just bust out some moves as I waited to be able to cross the street. I mean, to me, a world such as that makes sense. We are all already so disconnected from each other as we pass each other on the street, with our hoods up, shades on, and iPods blastin' our very own favorite tunes....so why not groove. Why not throw some positive energy into the air with a few of your signature dance moves??? As long as you don't get to tooooo wild with it, you wouldn't hurt yourself or anyone else. It might be kind of cool, funny, and all that jazz.

Basically, I just think that music is a gift. It moves people in ways that other things can't or else they'd be called music, duh. Don't waste the gift, bust a move...you never know who's watching & possibly holding in a dance move of their own. You never know, next time I find myself at a street light experiencing a really really good song...I might break out in with something! That'd be nice...


I'm just sayin....'that's the world...that I someday want to live in...'

:) this guy knows what I'm talkin' bout... :)



that's all I got for now...

Peace&&Love
says
JessalaineJessalaine

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