Doodling is fun and really helps time FLY!

another quotable moment in mi vida...New Year Resolution :)

"Forgive your enemies, but never forget their names." ~John F. Kennedy

So here is my new year's resolution: Work on loving unconditionally. I love my family unconditionally. However, this past year showed me how HARD it is to love the Family that I choose (my FRIENDS) Unconditionally. So no matter what happens between friends and other loved ones within the next year and for the rest of my life, I want to still be able to say that I have love for them if something happens that comes to test or 'pause'/'terminate' a 'friendship'. No more destroyed friendships basically, where things get so bad that the only option is to blow the mother-effer up. I want to respect the honest connections that brought us together in the first place. People in your life are seasons, and I know and except that fact. I just don't want the season's to pass drenched in negativity ANYMORE, because that will only create 'baggage' for me to carry into the next season I'm entering. I'm going to keep the peace and keep the love. Because truthfully, I do love many people that are in my life AND no longer in my life and if I was to pass away from this life, I would want all of them to know that...to know that I have nothing but love and well wishes in my heart for them and their lives. I'm going to make sure that my actions represent that from now on out.

I've got to do better and I'm going to do better. See you all at the TOP!!!!!!! :)

jessalaine :)

Follow up to last post, so folks don't get it CONFUSED

EVERYTHING IN MODERATION.

Also, WITH RESPECT FOR SELF AND OTHER(S)

LOL....HERE'S A VIDEO..I PUT 'ADDICTION' INTO YOUTUBE'S SEARCH AND ACTUALLY FOUND THIS VIDEO...COOLNESS/CRAZINESS.

"WHAT'S YOUR ADDICTION??? Is it money, is it girls, is it weed" Kanye West, Addiction, Late Registration.

Choose internet over sex.......for real??? lol, wtf!?!?!

SOOOOO, I was reading CNN and I like to read the articles that have been emailed the most...you know since I'm not cool enough to be a part of the group of people that get it emailed to them...just kidding I do that because I have nothing better to do sometimes....but anyways, I saw the headline. "Survey: many would take internet over sex"



Here's the link. read it: http://www.cnn.com/2008/TECH/12/15/internet.sex.survey/index.html?imw=Y&iref=mpstoryemail

First of all, LMAO!

Second of all, this is why people get divorced.


I love the internet and all...but the internet ain't EVERYTHING. For real, I would definitely rather go back to life before the internet ruled the world before giving up a great thing that God intended for us to do.

Craziness.


Peace and Love, of course,

J.E
That is all.

I do try not to get worked up about material things.....

Source:
http://bbcicecream.com/blog/2008/12/16/palladium-cologne-germany/#more-4251



However, I REALLY LOVE THIS SHIRT!!!! I saw it on N.E.R.D's blog (bbcicecream.com.blog)
Sidenote: check out their blog it's pretty cool. I mean I like it. They tend to put up pics of all the cool things they get to see and do which I think is cool, when you're bored as fcuk in the midwest.




This Shirt.....It's classic, what makes it even better is it references on of my fave N.E.R.D songs, come on sing it with me..."doooo i reallly eveeeenn loooovveeee yoooouuuu???? or do i really loveee your......brraaaiiinnn" lmao. I know it's late for Christmas requests but if you love me and/or want me to be happy you could always go hunt them down in Europe break into their tour bus/hotel (I will not be responsible for your bail money) and just steal/borrow forever the shirt when no one's around...cuz I'm not sure where to get it...but for real though if and when it is released(if it hasn't been released yet and i'm just sloow) I'm really probably going to buy it...hopefully it will be after the 1st or 16th of the month lol (since my rent and sidekick bill will have been paid) because I'm a broke college student....I will deal with not being able to go out (or up, for that matter lol) because I'll have a frickin cool ass shirt....Hi Hater.






I REALLLLY WANT THIS SHIRT LOL! LIKE WE ALL KNOW I LOVE LOVE LOVE MR. WEST BUT IF I HAD TO CHOOSE BETWEEN MEETING KANYE AND GETTING THIS SHIRT...I MIGHT HAVE TO PUT MY DREAM OF MEETING HOMIE ON HOLD...THAT'S ALL I'M SAYING...no offense, lol, j/k...but not really i don't think...i don't think that's mean as long as he never found out lol (how would he) so if I ever did meet him he won't be like, "this b*tch traded me for a t-shirt"......it's a sweet t-shirt tho!

this was random i know, but i was surfing the net as usual and saw this shirt, and instead of talking to myself about how much i wanted this shirt, i wrote in this blog. lol

PEACE&muchLove
JessalaineJessalaine

See...John McCain is not a bad guy

The one thing that really got to me about the whole Presidential Election and the campaigning is that I really feel that this campaign season brought out the Best and thee Worst in people. It brought out the best by invigorating so many people, especially young adults. It got people who usually could care less about whether they vote or not to get an opinion and voice it at the poll. I think that happened on both sides of the fence (republican & democrat). However, it also brought out the worst. Think about how many heated debates you either had, heard about, or witnessed. Think of all the negative things and words you would see brought up about both candidates. It truly brought out the worst. I say that to say, I really liked John McCain prior to the presidential campaign. So it really got to me to see the Campaign John McCain, I think that the people he trusted that were close to him got Ugly and then that ugliness just swooped up John McCain almost whirlwind like. Now that the campaign is over I really like the John McCain I'm seeing. I watched his interview on "This Week" this past Sunday and I was really endeared to the man again. I don't know if it was the part of me that always wants to take up for the underdog but for real, I was pleased with what I saw. During the interview he said something that was REAL and HONEST and I appreciated it. It's basically the point of this blog, so hear it is (He was answering the question about how he got past losing the presidential race):

"Get busy and move on. That's the best cure for it. I spent a period of time feeling sorry for myself. It's wonderful. It's one of the most enjoyable experiences that you can have. But the point is: You've got to m ove on...."


speaking words of wisdom...let it be.

Peace&TooMuchLoveICan'tEvenHandleIt.....

JessalaineJessalaine

This used to be (and really still is..) my SHIIIITTTTTT, truth. truth. truth.

Words that still hold true today. ...Remember, music is more telling than logic. I remember riding around in my lil camaro bumping this song after school, riding home at nights just singing this ish at the toooppp of my lungs. (by myself...because I had a CURFEW...i def. pushed the envelope as much I could w/ the curfew but still was ALWAYS the first to PEACE out, lol) I really felt it, I still do....


SIDENOTE: The official Video for this song is tyyyyyyte. I first heard about this song via TRL, back when Music Videos ruled the world and it was one of the main ways peeps heard about music, check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s8NDQls3_kc

Here are the lyrics: http://www.metrolyrics.com/shit-on-the-radio-lyrics-nelly-furtado.html
Because the words, are what I'm truly in love with. (Disclaimer: It was a fan that wrote these lyrics out I'm sure, everyone's ear is different, so if you prefer just watch the official video and listen for yourself loves)

Dedication, ANG. However, I hope others hear these words...that I feel could be taken right out of my Heart.

Peace&MuchLove,
JessalaineJessalaine
:)

And I wonder.....

So I found this article on CNN.com...I literally laughed out loud at work when I read this from the story's highlights. "About two pounds of potent cannabis found stashed in Gushi shaman's tomb" --> LMAO at POTENT and that they said it was STASHED.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/WORLD/asiapcf/12/11/ancient.cannabis/index.html?imw=Y&iref=mpstoryemail

On A Sidenote:
They found two pounds of this marijuana. (TWO POUNDS!) What are they/did they do with it. Something tells me SOMEBODY took some! I hope they don't destroy it...That would be really inhumane. I do think that marijuana will be legalized for medicinal purposes all over the country at some point in the not so far future...so they should hold onto it....for research purposes.

Read The Article.
Don't Do Drugs.

breaking rules

Sooooo, I told myself I was going to retire the bright nail polish once fall and winter seriously rolled around...I think I did an okay job of only selecting 'bold' colors for awhile...but I couldn't resist.....

Painting my nails is really something that I seriously enjoy. I should mention I enjoy chipping the nail polish as well.

I took this pic after I was done with the painting and such...and since I'm bored at work i decided to post it.

Peace&Love

j.e.l

Photoshop really is SWWEEETTTT!

I have to thank a wonderful Cuban-Bolivian Beauty for creating this picture....giving me and many others a GREAT LAUGH! This is honestly THEEE BEST PIC EVER!

Sidenote: I think there are one too many pictures of me floating around this world with my mouth OPEN! I need to work on that...maybe I'll just turn into one of those SUPER-POSERS...you know the folks that strike a pose the minute they see a camera pointed anywhere in their direction..........................................................................womp womp.

If You Don't Respect Love, How can You Expect Love to Respect You?

In a past conversation with a great friend, we were talking about the state of some things going on around and within us and I just said, "You can't expect love to respect you, if you don't respect love." And it wasn't until after the last word had come out of my mouth that I realized exactly how profound the statement was. I feel it was so deep and sincere that I had set a new standard for my life just by speaking the words. After that conversation, I really did evaluate the statement I had made and elaborated on it in my mind. I want to make sure I understood what I was saying to make sure that I hold my own self accountable in/with Love and other matters of the heart. Also,I felt that I should have what I meant by the statement in reference somewhere in my mind should I need to explain it at some time. This entry is one of those times...



I really put Love on a high pedastal. Just because I truly believe that it conquers all. I wrote awhile ago about how God is Love. God can fix anything, therefore Love can fix anything. I don't just believe in the Power of Love because it sounds good...I've seen for myself and experienced for myself what Love can fix and do. I feel like when a person is in love they are fragile, whether they want to be or not..whether they want to be or not. A person is fragile because of the power that love possesses. Think of the crazy things you have done or seen done for love. Think of how broken you have been or how broken someone close to you has been over love. Think of all the crimes of passion that make it on the news, simply because someone couldn't live without someone's love, or they couldn't handle the thought/reality that someone they love is loving someone else (I feel this is more the exception, than the rule). That is how powerful Love is...it makes you do thinks you think you could never do and you feel ways that you never felt before and experience a feeling that doesn't exist outside of the Love you're feeling. Love is so powerful that it can also hurt you in a way that you may feel at the time is incurable. However, I do not feel that Love's intentions are to birth pain. I feel that Love in the wrong hands and Misplaced Love bring hurt and from there only a Greater Love can cure that hurt. I hope you feel me when I say that Love is powerful.



We are socialized to respect those that are in positions of power. Think about it...as a society we really do respect and place on a 'throne' those that are powerful and effective at showcasing that power. So I just wonder why we as people can't seem to grasp the fact that Love has to be respected. Especially if you are to REAP WHAT YOU SOW (Sidenote: Karma is Real. You Better Believe That Buddy.) I feel that if you take advantage and misuse Love then you can't expect for the Real Love that you give to someone at some point to be honored. Because Love has already identified you as someone that is going to treat her wrong and disgrace her name. A person in that situation is going to have to work EXTRA HARD, once they're really in Love just to prove themselves worthy. Naturally it shouldn't be hard for an individual to prove that they are worthy of love because we were made to love and be loved. However, we reap what we sow...so if you sow shit, you will get shit. If you cause someone pain under the umbrella of Love then you should expect nothing less at some point to feel the same pain that you caused someone else to feel. That's not because of any kind of vengenance but how can you really understand Love if you don't understand that other side of it as well...it's necessary to make you a better lover, someone worthy of Love you're seeking.



I think what I mean by respecting Love is pretty simple and it's not much to ask for from people. It just means being the BEST PERSON that YOU CAN BE! There is no sweeping standard because circumstances vary with every situation. If you want some examples:

-Don't Cheat, Don't Cheat, Don't Cheat. Ladies and Gents...I think when people cheat on someone they are really disrespecting love because they are only thinking about themselves. No matter how you slice it. For me there are no excuses for that B.S...because I would rather get over the hurt of breaking up and realizing that it wasn't a love that was meant to be, then to have to get over someone cheating on me and finding out 1. I'm a damn fool and 2. that person didn't give two shits about me. (I'm not judging those that like to dip out on their significant others...because Do You....but I'm just saying Karma is Real...and it could come back at you with the strength of a thousand pains...when you least expect it.)

-Be Honest. Be honest with yourself and the one that is loving you. Should the time come that you're love isn't what it was with someone, you should let them know because you love them (or at some point had love for them). The truth hurts, but nothing like a lie. I believe that Love will show the person that the Love wasn't the right one, just as It had showed you that it wasn't right. If you're honest, you make sure that Love will come back around to you truthfully.

-Don't confuse respecting love with the reciprocation of love. You can respect love without reciprocating it when you find yourself in these kinds of situations. What you don't do is lead the person that is loving you on to believe that there is mutual feelings or even the chance for mutual feelings in the future. You shouldn't feel bad if the feelings someone has for you doesn't match the feelings you have, because that person is just travelling down the road that is going to lead them to their One.

-Keep it Real. Basically, don't call a pile of shit a dozen roses. If you are just talking to someone, tell them. If you're just screwing, tell them (or at least be CLEAR in all your actions, and don't confuse clear with smooth). My Mama, (whom I love more than my own self because she keeps it real with me to make sure I become the Best Woman that I can be) told me once, "Jessica, sex with someone you don't love is just getting the monkey off your back." Those truly are words of wisdom and it is so true. Outside of the moral conviction the Church put in me, I don't think that a person should feel bad about just having sex. Sometimes you just need to get 'the monkey off your back.' Don't read that as me saying that you should be out screwing a different person every week, or worse every night. You're body is a temple and you should be careful of whom you let enter it. If you just let anybody kick it at the temple, the property value goes down. At least in my books...once again no judgement passing those that like lots of visitors in or at their Temple...I'm just saying I wouldn't buy it and that's because I judge myself by the same, if not harsher, standards. Don't let the belief that just having sex with someone is a bad thing lead you to mislead someone. Keep it Real.

To just put it simply I really feel that you should always have good intentions when dealing and interacting with other people. That isn't hard because if you can't find any good intentions to apply towards someone that's a good sign that person is someone that you don't need in your life, so just take the hint and keep it moving.



This post isn't me judging anyone, so please do not take it as that. I take the Commandment, Thou Shalt Not Judge, seriously. I don't do it, less I be judged by the same standards. I only judge myself and that works for me, because I want to be the Best Person that I Can Be. This is merely my opinion. If this post 'stings you' or 'pokes at you' in any manner, it really wasn't my intention, but I will say that if it is moving you in some kind of way maybe take a second to reflect on the person that you are or the person that you may be presenting to someone.



Also, this post wasn't brought to you by a 'woman's scorn.' This is just my perspective, based on what I've seen or experienced in this short life of mine.



Peace&MuchLove,

JessalaineJessalaine



**Hopefully this entry does justice to the point I was trying to get across. I'm at work and all over the place, plus my head is hurting a little bit...still recovering from THEE ABSOLUTE WORST headache I had last night that kept me up forever....booo to that ish.***

SIDENOTE, simply brought to you by procrastination, lol

Let inspiration take the place of aspiration. All unemployment would cease. I always have plenty of work to be done and always pay My workpeople well.
--Two Listeners

This was my iGoogle homepage's Reminder From God. Haha, it made me not feel so guilty about writing in my blog instead of these papes (that's not a typo, i'm referring to my papers as pApes...lol, "street" terms applied to my hustle, college) that I need to be writing.

Peace,
J.E.

just wondering....

i'm just wondering if anybody else's iTunes, when your whole music library is on shuffle, seems to just play ALL THE RIGHT SONGS?!?!??? because mine does so more often than not. and i remember when i had like DA BOMB music library, before my hard drive decided to crash, and it would just be on point like, every single time. Now because I'm slowly but surely rebuilding my music library to the status it was once at, it happens less frequently but it's always at the right times. For real. Maybe I'm crazy and obsessed with music in a very unhealthy way, but I swear this happens. I got this matchbook that has like a music truism on the inside and it says, "that music is more telling than logic." and I just think that is so true. (SIDENOTE/ANOTHER BLOG ENTRY: That's why I think God truly has his hands on the music industry....because music can just reveal things to you sometimes...I'm talking all genres gospel/christian and secular) Bob Marley said, that "when music hits, you feel no pain" and it goes along with that. Music is just the ish and I'm so thankful that it moves me the way it does.!

I'm listening to "Live Your Life," you know by T.I. and Rihanna, and I promise I love T.I. verses on this song but RIHANNA KIIIILLLLLLLLLLS IIITTTTTT! Like if I hear this song at the club at the right (or possibly wrong...depending on how the situation would end...) moment...once it get's to RIHANNA's part I'm wyyyyllllinnn. For Reals, that part is my JAM! Like so quotable that I don't even like to quote it because it's special, lol. I told you...I might be obsessed with music. But, who cares? Cool.

By the way this moment was brought to you by:
-Joss Stone "Put Your Hands On Me"
-Usher ft. Jay-Z "Best Thing" (I couldn't give a f*ck, how could I give a finger? - Jay-Z. WORD!)
-Kid Cudi "Embrace the Martian"
-Maroon 5 and Rihanna "If I Never See Your Face Again" *lol, had a pleasant moment w/ this song
-Pharrell ft. Snoop Dogg "That Girl"
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Now playing: T.I. - Live Your Life (feat. Rihanna)
via FoxyTunes


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Now playing: Kanye West - Graduation Day
via FoxyTunes


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Now playing: Pharrell Williams - Raspy shit
via FoxyTunes

If you didn't realize this is the playlist that I listened before it was even a thought in my mind to blog up to the finishing of this post. Meaning I started writing this part at the end of Raspy Shit Lol, because right now I'm listening to John Legend "This Time" though probs going to skip it because it's so deep and IDK i don't know if I want to gooooo THERE, you know that place only JOhn LEgend can get you, you konw....LIkE LIFteD lol. yuppers.

Peace&Mucho Love as always,
Jeeeeeesssssssssaaaaalaine :)

Funny Follow Up to my Prop 8 inspired rant :p

See more Jack Black videos at Funny or Die

Literally...the stuff nightmares are made of...

It's like everytime I walk through this door and my brain just turns off. I prefer not to think between the four walls that this door is the entrance too. Ugh. I can't complain though because I do have a job and that is more than many, whom really need to be able to, can say. I'm just saying....there should be some kind of movement that revolutionizes office practices.

Feelin This AHORITA......

DEFINITELY A GOOD SONG.



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Now playing: Kanye West - Tell Everybody that you Know ft. Lil' Wayne
via FoxyTunes

tatuaje #3

I just thought this was a nice little piece of artwork that I could share. Simple but nice...at least in my opinion!

((11.29.08))


"fuck '08, we thinkin' bout '09" - Kid Cudi
Sidenote: I will forever remain thankful for 2008! You taught me well and we had some GREAT times!
For the record: this tattoo does not represent that K.C quote! I just added it...because thinking about the tattoo's meaning to me made me think of that quote yo. Enjoy.

PEAAAACCCE,
J.E.

Extended weekend oddities

So, I went to the UPS Store one day during this little holiday break that past. And as I was waiting, I let my eyes wander and they landed upon this little sign. UPS does it's customers the favor of telling them ahead of time, so there is no need for the customer to ask, that they will not ship (EXPLOSIVE MATERIALS) . That literally made me Laugh Out Loud. It's nice to know that in this day and age, we are at the point where it actually has to be stated that shipping companies will not ship Explosive Materials. Madness.

What is the world coming to?

Later that day, I went into a public restroom in a shopping mall where I'm from. When I washed my hands, I was suprised to notice that the dispenser shaped container on the wall was not for soap, but for disposing dirty/used needles. I was just amazed. I couldn't believe that I was seeing what I was seeing. I think what amazed me the most is that the administration of the mall I was in really felt that there was a need for a needle disposal thingy in the public restroom. Like dirty needles are really that big of a problem for this mall?? This is the world we live in and I would just never expect this at a shopping mall! I mean I could picture one of these at a shady gas station or rest stop but not in a mall. Mad Crazy.

Once again...Really what is the world coming to??

These are just a few of the WOW moments I had over this little break.

I feel like I should mention that I went to my first strip club over the weekend. Being from Indiana and hearing all about the strip clubs in Atlanta from my people's that travelled South for school, made me a little skeptical to visit one of our local strip clubs. Mostly because I didn't want to see anyone I went to high school with up on nobody's pole doing their thug thizzle and I definitely didn't want to see garbage, period, on a pole. So I FINALLY decided to go, after pre-gaming like only me and my love know how to do it seems, and went to the strip club. Looking phenomenal I might add. Made it to the strip club which was unimpressive from the outside, but quite the opposite on the inside. I must say I was thoroughly impressed with these women. LMAO. These chicks really really really really work hard for their money and I can't knock them (I don't think I ever have.) I know people like to hate on the sssstttrrrippppaass but really they are just HATING. These women's pockets (at least the ones at this particular strip club I visited) are probably on the fat side and I would hate to if I wasn't dedicated to my own hustle. Shit I was damn near inspired at this strip club! I think everyone should go to a strip club at least once and another time with your boo...because if you pick the right club, it's guranteed to be a fun time.

Sillllly. I know.

Peace&Love

Jessssalaine